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Cassandra Selwyn has no idea what's coming; ([info]noprophet) wrote,
@ 2012-02-05 21:07:00

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[Warded to Moira]

I hate them. I hate these dungeons and I hate them, I hate that they can look at something beautiful that someone else has made and turn it into something dirty, something despicable. I hate that they assume the worst at every turn no matter what is said or done. I hate that one cannot even disagree in the most mild manner with even their most outrageous accusations without being painted as something hateful. I hate them, all of them, and I hate myself that I don't hate them enough to say it to anyone but you. And that I'm saying it to you at all when I haven't any right


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Cassandra
[info]hocusfocus
2012-02-06 02:31 am UTC (link)
At least you can say it to someone, even if it isn't to them. Even if they might deserve your ire, this time.

There is... I imagine there is little I can say that might make you feel better about them, except that, well, I think I know how you feel. I hate, too, how they can turn something so beautiful into something so wrong.

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Warded to Moira
[info]noprophet
2012-02-06 02:35 am UTC (link)
It's them that have those thoughts, it's them who are disgusting and filthy and wrong. It always has been. And I'm one of them and I'll never be anything else

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Cassandra | Moira
[info]hocusfocus
2012-02-06 02:38 am UTC (link)
I know it is. Believe me, I know.

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Cassandra | Moira
[info]noprophet
2012-02-06 02:41 am UTC (link)
Why don't you hate me? How can you not hate me?

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Cassandra | Moira
[info]hocusfocus
2012-02-06 02:45 am UTC (link)
Because you're not them. I don't think you ever were.

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Cassandra | Moira
[info]noprophet
2012-02-06 02:48 am UTC (link)
Yes I am! I'm just like them, my family is just like them, I'm friends with all of them, they're my only friends, I parrot everything they say and I nod and smile and I won't even admit who I'm in love with to that very person because of what they'd think

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Cassandra | Moira
[info]hocusfocus
2012-02-06 02:54 am UTC (link)
It doesn't have to be that way. Your family, maybe, or your house mates, but not you.

Who you- Love?

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Cassandra | Moira
[info]noprophet
2012-02-06 03:00 am UTC (link)
I am my family. You're the only person who doesn't know that. I am my family, without my family I'm not anything at all.

[...]

I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have, I shouldn't even be

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Cassandra | Moira
[info]hocusfocus
2012-02-06 03:05 am UTC (link)
I can't believe that. Maybe that makes me naive or unrealistically optimistic, but I just cannot make myself believe it. I am not my father or my brother or even my mother, though I suppose that argument doesn't work for-.

Please don't apologize.

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Cassandra | Moira
[info]noprophet
2012-02-06 03:09 am UTC (link)
But it doesn't change anything! I'm still a coward and I'm just tormenting you when I'm meant to be letting you go!

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Cassandra | Moira
[info]hocusfocus
2012-02-06 03:12 am UTC (link)
Maybe someday you won't be.

If I wanted you to let me go, I wouldn't answer these messages.

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Cassandra | Moira
[info]noprophet
2012-02-06 03:18 am UTC (link)
I don't think so.

You shouldn't

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Cassandra | Moira
[info]hocusfocus
2012-02-06 03:21 am UTC (link)
I do. However foolish that makes me.

I want to. I treasure-

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Cassandra | Moira
[info]noprophet
2012-02-06 03:36 am UTC (link)
We're both fools, then.


I need to take a walk.
I'm sorry.

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Cassandra | Moira
[info]hocusfocus
2012-02-06 03:40 am UTC (link)
I suppose so.

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